thankful. {josh groban.}

sorry for the delay. here is a thanksgiving week update!
the end of the year is my most favorite time of the year.
it starts with halloween and ends with new years.
i love it for many reasons.
the main reason being how family oriented the holidays are.

this thanksgiving was a little different then other thanksgivings in the past.

usually it consists of my moms side of the family celebrating thanksgiving for 3 days straight.

this year we did it with my dads family.

don't get me wrong it was still so much fun. it was just different.

on thanksgiving day my brother. sister and i ran a turkey trot.

my brother ran .5 mile in 3ish min. taking 3rd in his age.

my sister ran 1 mile in 8ish min. taking 2nd in her age.

and i ran a 4 mile in 33 min. taking 5th in my age.

don't worry details on the race will be coming soon.

right after the kids races so obviously I'm more excited then them haha

we drove down to st george on thursday after the race.

we arrived around 2:45 and we devoured our delicious dinner.

after we played kickball to work off some calories.

we then came back for dessert. it was divine to say the least.

friday night we went to tuacahn and watched the christmas story.
we then took pics with santa. and the cousins.

the rest of the weekend was full of soccer games.

linds was in a soccer tournament all weekend so we cheered on northern peaks.

well lets just say they took 1st in the tournament. ya winner winner chicken dinner.

now its time to finish strong in the semester.

and tomorrow starts 25 days of blogging! 

formal invite. {ray j.}

i love "stealing" blogging ideas.
they make me feel so creative.

but want to know what i love even more?

being invited to steal those ideas!

meet ashley. she blogs over here.

we have been friends since high school.

she is a bundle of joy and has the best personality.

stalk her blog i dare you.

anyways back to the invite.

she has issued the idea to do a 25 days of blogging.

so starting december 1st i will be joining her in blogging once a day until christmas.

obviously some of my posts will be christmas related.

others will not. 

i am taking the challenge. 

and i am spreading this challenge to the people i stalk

rachel.

brooke.

tamela.

victoria.

cait.

eliza.

indy.

mikaela.

shauna.

ash.

kristin.

you girls in???

if your name is not on here. don't be offended. your invited too.
{let me know and i will add you to my stalking list.}

here is to 25 days of christmas blogging. 

the truth. {jason aldean.}

a glimpse on today:

i wasn't sure i would ever be ready for this post.

and to be completely honest i still am not sure i am ready.

this post contains a lot of personal information that being a girl i am scared to share.

but i need help. a lot of my hard work has gone to waste and it is time to work harder for it again.

so this is the true beginning of my 2nd journey of weight loss.

confession:

{for the record. this blog post is going to be a sequence of posts. my story is WAY too long to have as one post. also for the record if i have told you anything about my weight (what i weigh now or what i have weighed before...) it was a lie. yes i lied. i am human. i am sorry. but you are now going to get more then the truth, and probably more then you ever wanted to know. oh also don't judge me or get mad at me because we all have problems, and i am working on accepting mine.}

professional information:

{i am 5' 2". a healthy weight for that height is 105-130 lbs. if you are taller then me (even just one inch.) you should weigh more then me. so don't get any ideas from my numbers.
i like to stick to the low end of this range because of my small bone structure.}

story time {weight loss round 1}:

in high school and in my freshman 1st semester of college i was overweight.

i weighed myself everyday, as i still continue to do now.

i won't share that number with you because i am beyond embarrassed about it.

i mean honestly how could i let myself get that out of control?

well as a freshman in college i decided i was going to compete in miss southern utah.

i also decided i needed to start working out.

i started by just doing 30 min on the elliptical which quickly changed to 1 hour.

i started by just losing pounds here and there.

the pageant was about a month away and i decided i needed to lose more.

so i started to eat better. i counted my calories to stay on track.

after about 4ish months {from the time i started} i finally got to the point where i was losing 2 lbs a week.

for the pageant in the end of january i was 120 lbs.

my body kinda hit a stopping point at 118 lbs. only for about 2 weeks.

so i added 20 min on the stationary bike.

then it continued to descend.

i was then again losing 2 lbs a week.

i felt great. 

at the very beginning, my goal was to be at 110 lbs.

it was the highest end of my weight range and i didn't know if my body could handle lower.

and then i got there and i realized i still had a little "chub chub." around the abdomen area.

so i decided that wasn't low enough.

i decided 105 lbs was my new goal.

i was now working out for 1 hour 30 min. straight cardio. 

i reached 105 lbs and i felt fine. but i was curious....

inside details:

i never told anyone my true weight. 

{i just told ash about 2 months ago.}

i would always say about 5 pounds heavier then i really was at the time.

i didn't want people to freak out at me.

or to tell me that "it wasn't healthy for me."

i got annoyed when people would tell me i was "too skinny"

especially when they would question me about having an eating disorder.

happy birthday (dad.) {the song.}

dear dad,

happy birthday! i hope it is everything you hoped it would be even though i am not home to celebrate it with you.  i hope you do something real crazy and i hope your birthday cake doesn't set the fire alarm off. {you and i both know how many candles are on there :)} well dad, i just want to say thank you for everything you have done for me and for our family.  you are one of my greatest heros and i look up to you so much. thank you for teaching me how to be strong and how to stand up for my beliefs even when it is hard.  thank you for raising me in the gospel and being a worthy priesthood holder at all times, and letting me know i can always ask for a fathers blessing.  thank you for always being there and willingly listen to all my stories that i can ramble on for days, and even if you don't really care, you put on a face like you do.  thank you for sending me text messages while i am at college asking me how my day has been, it helps me know that you think of me often.  thank you for always pushing me to do my best in everything i do and helping me reach my full potential. i am so thankful that i have such an awesome dad, and i hope i can find someone to marry that is at least half as awesome as you. i love you dad.

love,
your little brookie

real bad news. {kanye west.}

this could quite possibly be the worst news ever.
read it and weep.
sorry to ruin your day.

numbers. {jojo.}

so i am a little obsessed with numbers.
not all numbers.
only if they are a cool sequence.
obviously today is one of those cool sequence days.
11.11.11.
and of course at 11:11 am i made a wish.
and of course at 11:11 pm i am going to make another wish.
i'll let you know if they come true.

today i finished school at 8:50 am.

i drove home.

i took care of my gimp brother {he got surgery on his arm.}

i hung out with my little brother and sisters.

i went to a best friends wedding reception. {lyndsie jones.}

{it was gorgeous by the way.}

and i hung out with one of my most besties of besties. {kristin dicristfano.}

it was so fun to see her and i can't wait until christmas break when i will see her again.

then i got to see my older sister who also came down for another wedding reception tomorrow.

today has been an awesome day.

obviously because of the amazing number sequence.

here is too 11.11.11. 

and at 11:11 pm there will be another toast to wishes.

change. {taylor swift.}

changes are taking place.
and i feel great and overwhelmed and scared about these changes.
but its the first time i feel like i am making the right changes.

today i changed my major.

today i also found out i will graduate next year on time.

{best news ever. especially when i thought i was a year behind.}

after this hit me {a couple hours after finding out.} i started to stress/freak out.

i am going to be DONE with school in one year.

i am going to have to start a CAREER in one year.

i will no longer have to take classes.

no longer have the "college experience."

i have no idea what i want to do with my life.

where i want my "knowledge" to take me.

mainly what i am going to do with my degree.

after i calmed down a bit. i started to freak out again.
but with something different.
something a little more scary to decide.
something where graduating might have to wait until fall 2014.
something that i am scared to pray about because i'm scared for the answer.
one positive AND negative. it will postpone my reasoning for the first freak out session.

i try and stay positive and know everything will work out in the end.

but deep down i am scared about what is to come.

P.S.

i changed from exercise science to nutrition.

don't worry exercise science is now my minor.

honestly i feel like this is the best decision of my life.

even though this change increases credits needed.

obsessed. {miley cyrus.}

i have been wanting to make amazing desserts for quite a while now.
don't get me wrong i have made some to die for desserts.
but none that could have this much potential.
one problem.
i did not have the baking dish necessary.

i have searched high and low.

looked at ridiculous prices.

but extremely cute designs.

too bad im a poor college student where price matters.

well big lots matched my budget.

1 for $1 or 2 for $2 dollars.

you get the idea.

i bought 4.

introducing the newest member of my culinary dish collection.

ramekins.

so brooke, what are you going to make with these??

oh where do i begin?

lets start with molten lava cakes.

or better. PEANUT BUTTER molten lava cakes.

pazookies.

individual pies.

you get the idea.

granted on this blog there won't be much more talk of these beauties.

but. have no fear. follow the beloved ramekins on my sister and i blog. here!

they will be blogged about soon!